Exhaustion
Usually when the kids go back to school, I get overwhelmed with trying to get caught up. This year it waiting a bit until October, however I must say it's me harder then it has in many years.
My to-do list is miles long and all I want to do is sleep. Looking into my calendar I can't even find a day I can sleep in on until November.
You know that point where you are only doing jobs half hearted and not doing your best. That is what is starting to happen. I don't like that. That's not me.
So now the big question, How do I fix it? Usually I eat until I feel like throwing up, I crawl into a hole and cry for days.
Well I have started eating foods that make me feel like crap however I am strong enough that I am putting my foot down and stopping it now. Eating better and healthier will get me out if this faster. I have been crying daily, but not crawling into a hole. I have been putting on a good front and most people close in my life most likely don't even know I am dealing with this.
I suffer with depression it's not a bad thing it's just part of who I am. Being depressed takes everything out of me and makes me so tired. I refuse to go on medication to treat my depression, I instead will reach out to someone at some point, get it off my chest and begin to heal. In the future I would like to able to not have it happen every fall and maybe will figure out how to prevent it. Until then I will just learn how to cope with it and learn from it.