I have a hard time staying on track with any type of program. Unless I have a coach, doctor, or trainer following me close to help me stay on track. I have been on a weight loss program for as long as I can remember. For years it was just food based. Over the last three years it has become muvh more fitness based. I had lost 80 pounds in one year and have now gained 30 back. Even with the success I have had in the past, I struggle every day.
I LOVE sugar. Well actually I anm not sure if I love sugar or not. I often find myself turning to sugar when ever I have any time of emotion coming up. I am happy, sad, angry, bored, overwhelmed. Yep if I feel then I want to celerbrate my feeling with food. Part of it is from my childhood. As a child everything was based around food. As a teen and into my adult years food withholding only drove the need to overeat to grown stronger. lose 5 pounds eat a areo bar as a reward and before I know it the 5 pounds is back.
I am easy to injury. I push push push as hard as I can and I end up injring myself before I reach my goal.
Even when working with a one on one coach I was able to injury myself. Once I am injured it takes a long time to heal and then I fall out of the habit of working out.
Now onto the part about how I found a different look at commitment this week.
As some of you may know my son is taking vision thereapy. This is an intense program with, daily home work and a once a week visit with his thereapist. On Monday he lost it, as an 8 year old boy he hated that he had to do homework every day while his friends were playing video games. This is when I pulled out the book that he struggled to read when he first started the program. He read it with ease. We talking about his writing, his horseback riding, and even how much better at videop games he is. when he saw the improvemnets he dug in and finished his homework
After he went to bed is when I started beating myself up. Geez mom you need to listen to your own advice. I gi hard fast all in all at once. I need to step back and push myself but not push myself to my limit. Its time for this mmma to take it day by day. Eat what makes my body feel good and move my body everyday.
I think the best way is to stay committed is to track the process not just not the number on the scale. What you were lifting, what pants you were wearing, how you were handling stress. I am journalling and keeping track of all those things. even when I go back a couple months are read about I was feeling and dealing with eerything around me just months ago.
I have some goals that are larger then life and really scare me. For me its time to commit to me so that not only do I reach those goals, my children see me taking care of myself and reaching my goals.
My son has finished 9 of 24 weeks of therapy. For the rest of this treatment I pledge to stay completely focused on fueling my body properly and moving it everyday.